Busy Bee, Busy Body

I'm currently spinnin' the tunes here at KRUI 89.7 It's alright, you know, just kind of time consuming.

That's pretty much the story of my life. I like what I'm doing, but what I'm doing is making it difficult to like my life. It's a tough line to walk, but as Mr. Cash said, "I walk the line."

The real question proposes whether or not I walk that line well. Am I just a drunk person wobbling through or is my sanity there enough to get into my car and continue driving?

Tonight I have to make my way through the tundra of my snow-covered campus to see Romeo and Juliet. I hope I don't fall asleep.

February and everything after...

I've always been an advocate for winter. I love it's white glistening shine. I love the sound of fresh snow crunching under my feet. Most of the time I don't even mind the chilly breeze.

This year winter has taken advantage of me and my love.

I resent winter and want it to end pronto.

I forgot

There are certain things you just forget when you get to college:

1. Babies drool, so don't wear a sweater you planned on wearing again to babysit.

2. Parents aren't awake or apt to talking with past 10 p.m.

3. The high point of the day shouldn't be before you wake up.

4. It isn't normal to be upset that you don't have a chocolate fountain.

5. To have a classy party people shouldn't have to bring their own alcohol, but then again people shouldn't just go to a party with the intention of getting "Fucked up."

As much as I love college, there are certain things that I just wish I could remember. Until then, I'm going to allow for my roommate's irrational anger at the chocolate fountain we don't have.

American Fool

The Bears haven't won a Super Bowl since 1985. The Bears should win their game today. Who gives about the Colts? Maybe John Cougar, but not this kid.

Colleen and I used to listen to John Cougar tapes when we were kids. "American Fool" to get specific. I miss that -- those things in childhood where you just did things, some were cool others not so much (i.e. wearing a pink Minnie Mouse outfit everyday for a week). Now it feels like people have to try so hard to be something so that someone else will think, awesome.

It's really unfortunate the trade offs we have in our lives. Who are you anyway?

If that question has to be asked, pretty intense examination of what makes you, well, you has to get done. At twenty years old, here I am sometimes finding it difficult to decide which me I really am. It sounds much more like an existential crisis than it really is. But, all the same, everything seems to go so quickly, life, people, friends everything just keeps moving, and I just want to stop sometimes and say, hold on. Let me take it slow.

From newspaper to classes, friendships, relationships, everything --

I feel like I am watching everything from space
And in a minute I hear my name and I wake
I think the finish line's a good place we could start
Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want

It's only sometimes, because there's a certain amount of reinvention, evolution, change that occurs within a person, and with those changes, others around are doing the same in their own lives. It's almost scary if you can find yourself on a coordinating plane of existence as someone else.

I think it's interesting when celebrities change their stage names. From Puff Daddy to John Cougar Mellencamp. Reinvention: Evolution: Change.

An American fool can only stay one for so long before he grows up.