American Fool

The Bears haven't won a Super Bowl since 1985. The Bears should win their game today. Who gives about the Colts? Maybe John Cougar, but not this kid.

Colleen and I used to listen to John Cougar tapes when we were kids. "American Fool" to get specific. I miss that -- those things in childhood where you just did things, some were cool others not so much (i.e. wearing a pink Minnie Mouse outfit everyday for a week). Now it feels like people have to try so hard to be something so that someone else will think, awesome.

It's really unfortunate the trade offs we have in our lives. Who are you anyway?

If that question has to be asked, pretty intense examination of what makes you, well, you has to get done. At twenty years old, here I am sometimes finding it difficult to decide which me I really am. It sounds much more like an existential crisis than it really is. But, all the same, everything seems to go so quickly, life, people, friends everything just keeps moving, and I just want to stop sometimes and say, hold on. Let me take it slow.

From newspaper to classes, friendships, relationships, everything --

I feel like I am watching everything from space
And in a minute I hear my name and I wake
I think the finish line's a good place we could start
Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want

It's only sometimes, because there's a certain amount of reinvention, evolution, change that occurs within a person, and with those changes, others around are doing the same in their own lives. It's almost scary if you can find yourself on a coordinating plane of existence as someone else.

I think it's interesting when celebrities change their stage names. From Puff Daddy to John Cougar Mellencamp. Reinvention: Evolution: Change.

An American fool can only stay one for so long before he grows up.