Showing posts with label Ryan Adams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Ryan Adams. Show all posts

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Unlikely Acquaintances Who Become Friends.

There are thirty-seven cars on her street right now. She knows because she counted them. Earlier, Joanie (don't ask, she hates her name) went for a run...what was going to be a run, and instead, she got sidetracked into a conversation with her neighbor Manuel (that's pronounced Man-Well, not Man-You-Uhl, like she originally thought). They are in their building's downstairs lobby. He's sitting on one of the Pier1 Imports chairs that no one sits in normally.

"Hello pretty neighbor," says Manuel getting up to greet her. This is how Manuel speaks to all of his female building-mates. Just your typical overly friendly 65 plus Latino neighbor.

"Hi," Joanie says. "So good to see you." They hug, and Manuel gives her a small kiss on her cheek, very close to her right eye. Joanie tags on that last bit because Manuel's face is so expectant, his cracked corn cob smile visible behind dry lips.

"We are good today," he says hoping she's with him in his we-ness. She is. Manuel reminds her of her church growing up. There was an usher at Christ the King who was, well, too excited to lead people to their seats. He would say, "Today is the day, is the day, the day for you to sit...!" and he would guide them down the center aisle to whichever pew looked most empty, and shake everyones hands proclaiming the peace of the Lord be with them. She can't remember his name now. It's not really important, either.

"I'm just on my way out, Manuel," she says still smiling. Joanie is wearing bright violet running shorts with a zebra stripe down each side, Nike stitched onto the right, and a black dry-fit tank claiming: Strength. The green iPod nano currently playing her Top Tracks playlist is clipped to her arm. It will inevitably get annoying, as it will certainly hit the inside of her bicep. Eventually Joanie will elect to hold it.

"Oh, yes, yes. I see," Manuel says, adjusting his short-sleeved button up that is indeed buttoned up all the way. "I would fall down." He laughs at this sentiment.

Joanie smiles. "Me too," she admits, a girlish giggle cropping up.

Joanie hadn't gone for a run in over a month. The last time she did she was not three blocks from her apartment when she just face-planted, licking the pavement. As far as she could tell, no one had seen her Total Life Fail Moment, but in reality, someone did see and periodically when that someone is doing dishes and annoyed at her husband, she thinks of that girl who tripped and fell and smiles, laughing to herself. Her husband asks, "What's that about?" assuming she's laughing at him, because everyone assumes they're being laughed at when they're the only other person in the room, but she wasn't. She was laughing at the girl who fell, Joanie. Joanie doesn't know she exists, so the woman is no one important, thus she has no name.

Manuel shares his smile with her again. "Please, please, go on."

"Oh, thank you," Joanie says, turning her music down finally. "Are you going to be OK today?"

"Yes, I'm waiting for my daughter to come get me." He looks anxious.

"That's great. Are you getting lunch together?"

"Yes." He pauses, and Joanie starts to turn her iPod back on, but then, "She's looking at my apartment."

"Oh?"

"Yes."

"Is she helping you with something?"

"I'm going to go move in with her."

The unlikely acquaintances who became friends both look sad.

Finally, "When?" asks Joanie.

"This weekend."

"So soon?"

"Yes."

There's another long pause. Manuel's gaze is affixed to his friend, and then he hears a car pull up.

"Is she here?"

"Yes, this is her. Arabelle."

"Beautiful name."

"It is."

"Well, I guess, I'll —" Joanie cuts herself off. She didn't expect to be so sad. Manuel's her kind neighbor, but just a neighbor. A friend, who's about her own father's age. And Arabelle is about her age, maybe a little older. "I'll get going on this run. You let me know when you leave, though."

"Ok," says Manuel. He grins, waves at his daughter. She gets out of her turquoise RAV4, "Hi dad!"

Joanie waves, then turns to go, beginning her brisk run. A Ryan Adams song begins to play.
"Hello Gracie you're a good little girl. It's a beautiful world, oh when you're out in it. Last time I saw you playing in the yard, you were running with children and the old people were smiling..."

Friday, August 27, 2010

5 Things I...

Love:
1. ample free time
2. streak free windshields
3. ryan adams & the cardinals, "stop"
4. crunchy peanut butter
5. reading outside when there are no bugs

Do Not Love:
1. Tardiness/rushing
2. Explaining things that should be self-explanatory
3. Dirty table cloths
4. Crappy power steering
5. When you can only find one of the shoes you want to wear

Ryan Adams & The Cardinals: "Stop"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLWEFv_gMxE


I know a sickness ancient and cross
No crucifix could ever fix enough
But in the basement of a church, these people they talk
There is a line that must be walked

If you want to make it stop
Then stop

I know a place where the future is denied
I know a hand that twitches inside
For some of us the glass is filled with lights
But if the honey makes you sick, honey there is the line
That must be walked

If you want to make it stop
Then stop
Stop

Slow down
You dont have to talk
Lie down
Breathe
Stop
Slow down
Its not your fault
Look around
Theres so many of us
Theres so many of us
You are not alone
Ever
Ever
Ever
Stop

Call in the backup and the backup comes
But nobody can help you if you wont
Inside your chest your heart is just hurt
Behind your eyes a need replaced a want

I know a sickness so ancient and cross
No crucifix can ever fix enough
I know a past where the future is lost
I know a line that must be walked
There is a darkness and there is a light
And there is a choice
For a balance to be made every night
A weakness must be found

If you want it to stop
Stop
Stop

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

I will try to be there for you, I will try to be there for you if I can, what if I can't?

 

"If I am a Stranger," Ryan Adams & The Cardinals

For all the hours here that move too slow
There's all this letting go, that won't pass
If all this love is real, how will we know?
If we're only scared of losing it, how will it last?

If I am a stranger now to you
I will always be, I will always be
Stronger now then me, stronger then you
Our love will always be
And if we let it go, I will try to be there for you
If I can, what if I can't?

Today is yesterday when you don't know
How to rebuild the walls that someone has knocked down
To tell the truth it's hard enough about a lover
Who you only want to hide your darkness from
So you won't let them down

If I am a stranger now to you
I will always be, I will always be
Stronger now then me, stronger then you
Our love will always be
And if we let it go, I will try to be there for you
I will try and be there for you
If I can, what if I can't?

For all the hours here that move to slow
There's all this letting go, that won't pass
If all this love is real, how will we know?
And if we're only scared of losing it, how will it last?

If I am a stranger now to you
I will always be, I will always be
Stronger now then me, stronger than you
Our love will always be
If we let it go, I will try to be there for you
I will try to be there for you
I will try to be there for you
If I can, what if I can't?

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Ryan Adam and the Cardinals: Cardinalogy


Sometimes I will go weeks without listening to music solely. When I was in high school this would have been a travesty. I listened to music all the time as a teenager, but that's all I would be doing. I would be staring at the ceiling listening to music. Now, I'm lucky if I remember to flip on my iTunes as I get ready in the morning, or remember my iPod or can cook with music on. This thought all came about because I recently acquired the new Ryan Adams and the Cardinals album Cardinology. I've been listening to it on repeat as of late. I quite enjoy it. It's great to listen to when working, when getting ready before work, and in the evenings. It's something I can listen to just by itself. I don't feel like I need to be multitasking when I listen to it. It's because I don't feel like I'm being idle when I'm listening to it. I emailed it to a friend of mine the other day when asked to recommend some good Ryan Adams tune-age. I started with Fix It, and then realized that couldn't just be it. There are so many good ones on this album—pretty much all, except "Magick." And that once was obviously going to be not the greatest based solely on the spelling. It makes it seem like it will be about the card game Magick, popular with Dungeon and Dragons fans the world over.

In any case, "Cobwebs" is my new favorite today.
Somewhere impossible light still shines and every smile is as if new
Sometimes I feel like the static in the attic is making me just confused

If I fall will you catch me?
If I'm sorry, sorry enough
If I fall will you pity me?
Will you confuse my love for the cobwebs?
Confuse my love for the cobwebs?

I always pause if I can on fifth avenue look uptown with my head in the stars
Somewhere the buildings give way to sunlight give way to east and west central park

If I fall will you catch me?
If I'm sorry, sorry enough
If I fall will you pity me?
Will you confuse my love for the cobwebs?
Will you confuse my love for the cobwebs?
For the cobwebs?

Will you confuse my love for the cobwebs?
Confuse my love for the cobwebs?
For the cobwebs?

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Sunday afternoons are pleasant.

I forgot how much I like to write fiction. This afternoon I just started writing a bit of a story. I used to have a whole file of my fiction on my last computer. It's gone and so are all my stories. Makes me sad. That was always something I enjoyed. Writing for the sake of it. Some people flip on the television, which I do too on occasion, but writing to pass the time is fun. Singing along to Ryan Adams songs is also fun. I've been doing that all day. "Pearls On a String" is my favorite for the day.

"Blue eyes for miles. Pretty as a peach."

I just like that. I always wondered who the people who get songs written about them are. There's a part in the movie "The Holiday" where one character writes the "song" of another character, and I've always wanted to know what I would sound like, what a song of me would be. Musician couples intrigue me. Like Sheryl Crow and Eric Clapton in the 90s. She wrote "My Favorite Mistake" and performed songs like White Room together. Anyway,another song for another day.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Snowing & Snowing

A dreary February full of snow and no sunshine is not really what I'm up for these days. It's no fun to walk around Iowa City and feel like I may die at any turn. It's impossible to navigate the sidewalks and roads. I wish I had a collapsable shovel that I could carry around with me in order to dig my way out. Mayhem.


This kid knows what's up.

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Anyway, I've been back to listening to loads of Ryan Adams due to a magical instrument called Copy Pod! Adams' melancholy lullaby "La Cienega Just Smiled" on 2001's "Gold" is me. "And I hold you close in the back of my mind/Feels so good but damn it makes me hurt/And I'm too scared to know to how I feel about you now/How I feel about you now."

Friday, October 12, 2007

Here & Away

You come for me in the worst of places
You come for me, you come and try to take me home
I'm always in need and it's hard to be reciprocating
The fabric of our life gets torn
And everything's changing so how am I to know
How I'm going to hold on to you when I'm spinning out of control

-Ryan Adams "Everybody Knows" off of Easy Tiger